Bury Your Humanity

Its been more than a year since I've and I've decide to blog for fun though I know that not much of my peers would be reading my post.
Well, looking back at my past post really made me laugh ALOT! Looking at all the emotional and vulgar post , things that I couldn't believe that I've actually type them out.

Sec 4 this year is very tiring so far with N levels and stuff. I really regret slacking off last year as now it is so hard for me to get back on track and to discipline myself to take time off to study.But so far I think that things are going pretty smoothly.

Bury Your Humanity
To bury it deep within to the extend that no one can really see what're you thinking , how'd you feel.So that people won't have to worry about you.
Purity
To think and do only the right things so that you'll never lose focus in your goal.

These are the 2 goals I hope to achieve by the end of the year.
Dear Readers ,
I thank you for taking time off to read this post.

Your's sincerely,
Marcus

Er.Fuck it?Sooo longgg since I last posted.Common test.Good luck guy?

Long Time Since I posted.

Close to 3months since I last posted.And throughout these 3months,my life was ever changing and changing and changing.My character start sliding to a whole new side of attitude.I didn't like the whole process because people was always calling me emotional and stuff.But now I just thank God for this new Character in life which I am So in love with.It's very very COLD.So if you're reading this I suggest you leave me alone.

My phone is dead and I'll have to bring it back to live later on.

My relationship is also failing.

My Christian Walk with God is also stopping.

My compassion for people is totally gone.

I don't love as much anymore.

I'm starting to detest and hate.

Mostly an overflowing of arrogance has filled me up.

I'm super cold now.

I'll stop here.

Marcus who rocks with piano

Hi guys Marcus here.it has been long since i posted.So ya.Yesterday had a awesome sermon by pastor chris long.Making the right choices.And the video is very very awesome by this drummer Marcus Xiong trying out piano for the first time.WITH EVERYTHING I WILL PRAISE THE LORD MY GOD IN ALL MY MIGHT AND MY STRENGTH BECAUSE I WAS MADE A SON OF GOD AND THAT I'M A PRINCE!!!! Prince.Elijah

Even though I wanna die so badly . Just have to enjoy life till that time comes.
Don't know why yesterday The bible verse Deuteronomy 4:10 (Remember the day you stood before the LORD your God at Horeb, when he said to me, "Assemble the people before me to hear my words so that they may learn to revere me as long as they live in the land and may teach them to their children.") is in my head.This verse but i don't understand the meaning of it.Must have some reason i hope.

Later on going Malaysia Jb with my dad .I hope we can go Genting during march holidays.
good luck for your results.I hope I didn't die so badly


Elijah

Don't want go school
Don't want go sec 4
Don't want study
Don't want wake up
Just wanna rest forever.

I believe death is the only way.
Purpose of life?I give up finding the purpose.

Now I know why no one was there when i needed help.It is because I didn't wanna help myself in the first place.Sighh.. I've screwed up my life.
I hope I die earlier.I've done my part.

No point praying when I DON'T want to help myself.No point coming to church no point in life.
Seriously.Don't go church = Not christian? WRONG !
Anti-Christ means you believe that there is a God and it is true.But you just hate him for his plans for you.


I hate.

Today was a very fast day.This week fly pass damn fast.I hope it goes constantly till the end of time.If Laything/Fiona happens to see this...

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!


Recieved msg from Sean yesterday saying that this coming tuesday I will be leading and Jonathan will be playing the guitar.Wah I'm happy yet unhappy.I just hope Sean will be able to book the Hall then I can Play the drums . heheheheheheeee.Wonder what song to sing.Just have to pray and ask God.

Next friday is cross country...hmmm wonder what Jeslyn can motivate me to run...I KNOW
ALREADY . GG NUGGETS I'M SO GONNA WIN THIS SHYT!
Hmm lets see...Whose am I gonna vs
Got Paul,Melvyn,SiangSeng,BENARD,Syabil and Nicky i think.

Might lose to Syabil...Aim for atleast 3rd bah.
I REMEMBER WHAT Nicholas said the previous time we sat and talked.
"Just do your best and God will do the rest"

haha I will surely do my best.

Marcus



So I look to you
No one else will do